I don't remember how old I was but I know it was from 15 or earlier, since I still lived with my mother. I started having suicidal thoughts on my birthday. I remember that to "celebrate" my mother took me out to a restaurant. I was so happy to have her attention that I let my guard down. She asked me questions about my brother, about the time he spent on the computer. I said the truth. When we got home, my mother went down to my brother in the cellar and she started yelling a