For years I knew there was something wrong with me but I couldn't figure out what. I know I felt like a ghost, even though I was interacting with people, because it was like I couldn't feel present in the moment. I had read about dissociation because I was determined to find a solution but I didn't think I had it. Years passed and the truth came out when I spoke to a trauma expert about my recurring nightmares. In recurring nightmares I was being abused and I couldn't react.

Two years ago, while I went sledding in the mountains for the first time, I fell and a sled with two people on board hit me on the back. When I got up I felt pain and shortly after I started to notice that I couldn't move my right arm but only my hand. I was scared but I was reassured that it was normal at first and I continued with the pain. In the evening I was only able to move the lower part of my arm. I was scared. In those days I dreamed of Raffaello chocolates several