Dear friend, I understand how you feel. I too have seen the blackest darkness in my life. This is not to say that our experiences are the same, but similar. So I understand you. I cried so much I asked God if my tears could cover an entire football field. I cried so much that I was afraid to start, because I didn't know when I would stop. I wondered if it would last forever. The years passed and although there were joys, the multitude of pain was stronger. God has been my anc